Decisions

          I've decided that if you're gonna ignore me then fine, I'll ignore you too. If you're not willing to start the conversation then we won't talk. If the conversation dies because of you it's gonna stay dead. Just saying Yeah won't keep me around long enough to talk to you. I won't sit here trying to think of what to say  to yeah because you know what? How I see it is if you wanted to talk to me so badly, if I was the one person you didn't want to stop talking to you won't let the conversation die. So if you do and you do like me then awesome message me again and say something else, change the subject, talk about your day I don't care just show me you're willing to put in SOME effort. After all, I've always been the easy to get girl, and I'd always come back to you but not anymore. I'm tired of it. After all don't guys like to chase girls? And I'm so tired of chasing it all makes sense. Maybe you don't like me enough to keep up a conversation with me and that's fine. Because you know what? If you're not the guy who wants to keep a conversation with me don't you dare expect ME to be the girl to keep a conversation with you. After all I have to live by my new motto... If you don't put in the effort why should I?

Have you ever?

Have you ever been sitting there just wanting to bawl your eyes out to your best friend but you can't. For whatever reason you can't and it sucks. So you sit there unable to do anything it's like your brain shuts down. And who are you supposed to tell this stuff to? Your best friend is out of the question and that really was the only option. I guess I should've noticed her acting different separating more from me but I didn't and now I have... what? What DO I have? A best friend that isn't my best friend anymore? An old friend that holds all your secrets? You have nothing it feels like. You can't fight for what's already gone so you do nothing. You keep it all inside 'til you run out of energy. And then you just break down. Too many secrets. Too much pain. Too much feeling of betrayal it's just all too much so you can sit there and slowly break down because nobody's gonna stop you. Not even try.

Superhero or Supervillan?

In today's world we all like to pretend. What would being a superhero be like? Why can't just average people be superheros? The only reason we can't be is because we're all weak inside. If you saw someone in trouble what would you do? Now your automatically going to respond help them but you wouldn't really. If someone was beating the shit out of a person would you really step in to help?